“I don’t want to homeschool anymore!” That’s what I have been saying to my husband all summer long. The truth is that I really do want to homeschool but I don’t want to homeschool in our current situation.
The thought of home educating four kids this year along with a strong-willed preschooler and an active baby seems daunting to me. I know all the benefits of homeschooling and why this journey really is the best one for our family. But, I can’t figure out how to educate my kids this coming school year when I can’t even find the time to go to the grocery store or make meals during the summer months!
How It Usually Works
In all honesty, I’m usually burnt out by the end of each school year. It usually helps to take a few weeks (or the entire summer) off from homeschooling and then attend at least one homeschool convention. Those two things have been enough to refresh and motivated me for the next school year. By the time curriculum starts arriving in the mail I’m usually bursting with excitement for school to start!
This Year Is Different
This year is different. I took the whole summer off. I gained a fresh vision for homeschooling at my state’s homeschool convention but when I started pondering the day to day workings of homeschooling with six kids at home I started to get overwhelmed by the task.
My current days seem to be consumed with me playing referee and cleaning up messes and spills. My husband has been doing the grocery shopping. We’ve been eating breakfast for dinner more nights than I’d like to admit and the only reason we have clean clothes to wear is because my oldest daughter has taken on the task of doing laundry. The house isn’t getting cleaned and the kids haven’t been doing their chores because I’ve been too busy trying to stay one step behind the chaos to monitor whether they are staying on task.
Confiding In My Husband
I’ve been sharing my anxiety with my husband and he’s been a patient listener. He’s offered to do the grocery shopping, said he doesn’t mind PB&J or frozen waffles for dinner and volunteered to help more than he already does with cleaning the house. I appreciated his willingness to assist me in managing the home. The thing is that he won’t be home during the day when the chaos is at its peak and the school books sit neglected in a heap on the table.
How am I suppose to educate two girls who need a calm and quiet atmosphere while also teaching a boy who needs to learn through movement and noise? When do I find the time to nurse the baby when the preschooler is throwing a fit? What can I do to make time for home education while also meeting my family’s physical, emotional and spiritual needs?
My Breaking Point
Three weeks ago I would have ended this post with a tearful, “I don’t want to homeschool anymore and I don’t think I can do it!” but God had other plans in mind. Plans to encourage me and keep me on my knees in prayer.
Do you feel overwhelmed by the task of homeschooling your kids? Are you wondering if it was a good idea to take on the education of your children?
Click here to hear how God used a simple hymn and His Word to encourage me to press on in my homeschooling journey.
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